So what have I done today on my road to a better self? Well, probably not a lot, but I did feel very stressed today and I didn’t have a drink. Trying to be very mindful of why I may want a drink. I would like to get back to having a healthy relationship with alcohol, if that’s possible. I have always loved wine, but it went from a love to not really caring – it just eased the stress and then I think it became a habit. I tend to be a creature of routine – to the point of being almost OCD about it. I think I developed a psychological dependence on it. No, I know I did. And then – just as in my previous post – it got to a point where I was like “Enough!” I grew very tired of what it was doing to me – my three to four glasses of wine an evening habit – not sleeping well, leg and foot cramps at night, weight gain, puffiness in my face that never seemed to go away and then I started having problems with heartburn, etc. Enough!
So it hasn’t been long – just a couple of weeks of serious reduction. In the last two weeks I have had one glass of wine one day the first week and then two rum drinks with my husband while we did a staycation at a local resort for my birthday. Today – nada, but I wanted it – earlier today anyway. So, I guess – yea, me? If you can’t tell, I feel rather bah-hum-bug, but sadly I usually do on Sundays as I ponder the work week ahead. Another thing to work on. However, on the upside, I went grocery shopping today and got stuff to make breakfast smoothies – Greek yogurt, strawberries, blueberries, bananas, chia seeds, and super greens – kale, spinach, etc. And I got veggies, greens, and chicken to grill for salads this week. It was nice – felt very familiar. Up until early 2018, this is how I was eating and I got sorely out of the habit. I just need to keep it up.
This will be short post today. I am tired and have an 11-year old to drop off at a summer aquatics camp in the morning on my way into work. I really do hope it is good Monday.
Goals for tomorrow?
- Make a smoothie in the morning along with salad for lunch
- Have a healthy dinner
- No drinks
- And I HAVE to use my cervical traction device tomorrow! I ruptured disks in my neck in a car accident last fall. I am doing better but it has been a busy weekend and I am flared up
These are pretty light goals, but it is the first Monday since turning 49 and setting on this journey and I know myself. If I manage more, great – but I will be satisfied if I meet the above goals.
Love.
One Year to Fifty 